ENG160 Assignment 1 Letter Writing (Mode)
Alyson Silverman
ENG 160 Comp 1
Kissel
September 20, 2023
Past Self
Dear Past Me,
You were so happy. Being oblivious to the real world. Your only problem was your bedtime. You dreamed of being a teacher. You would play all day, making your family act like students. When you and Rachel would play games together you would act like highschoolers. Soon enough, you were. You dreamed of being older. You always wanted to be older. Whatever your sister did, you did. Just because she was older. You were bother her and her friends. That would always start arguments. You just wanted to be older. You also wanted to be a chef. Watching Master Chef with your dad. Or Hell’s Kitchen. You would always make dinner for your family. You were a happy girl. You were always smiling and laughing. The advice I would give you is to not get too comfortable. You never know what is going to happen. I also want you to know it is okay to not be okay. You never know when your life was going to flip upside down. Like it did. I wish I would’ve known how life is messy. You had no idea on what was coming your way. You had no idea your house would have that fire. Dad lost that job. You had to move. When you got to high school you were so excited because you always dreamed of it. You thought it was going to be like the shows. Well, it wasn’t. It was messy. The drama and emotions were all there. You never expected to lose that girl you grew up across the street from. You guys grew apart. Popularity. That destroyed the all the childhood friendships. It was different. Scary Different. 9th grade was the worst year of your life. Your mental health was the worst it’ll ever be. You wonder how the happy little girl change to a dull teenager. The night of the fire, you felt your safe place go away. Yes, it was a small kitchen fire but, it was everything to you. You were only moving a month later. So, it was hard living in a hotel. In high school you can’t let anyone get to you. Be your own person. Be you. Take the risks. You do not want to miss out on the high school experience. Also, be patient with your parents. They go through more than we know. But you’ll learn that when you are older. Also, do not be so hard on yourself. Don’t become your own bully. You are perfect the way you are now. Do not change for anyone.
I hope you are happy about how we turned out. I hope you are proud of yourself. You should be. You are the best person you can be. Stay happy. Go hang out with your friends. Listen to mom and dad. Even listen to Rachel, sometimes she knows more than them.
Dear Future Self,
Did you make it? Are you owning your own salon? How are we? I hope we are okay. I know things are a little rough now. I hope we got through it. I hope we got our college degree. I wonder if we work at a salon. I know that’s all I want right now. I want to officially work in one all the time. I hope the rest of your college experience is amazing. I mean so far, we are so happy here. A lot happier than how we are at home. At home you are stressed. We get angry too quickly. Are we happier there? I hope we are. I hope we also became a lot more patient with mom and dad. We never should have been so mean to them. They do everything for us. Are we closer to them as well? We were always close to mom. Did we end up getting close to dad? I hope we do. I hope we stayed close to Rachel.
I really hope in 5-7 years we are a manager at a salon to start working on our goal of owning one. Even if we are a manager for a while, that is still great. Maybe we would have a relationship then. Who knows. That is not as important. I wonder if we are in contact with anyone from home or college? I hope we are. Some are forever friends. Well, they should be. Did mom and dad end up moving out of state? I know they were thinking about moving to Texas or North Carolina. I wish Long Island was not so expensive. Maybe it got cheaper. I doubt it. Where do we live? Are we still on the Island too? I hope we live close to our family. Did we all move away? I hope we stayed close. I also hope we live on our own or a roommate by then. I know that would be hard at first with finding a stable job. I just hope the job would be at a salon. I don’t really want to live with mom and dad in 5 to 7 years. Do we live in the apartments?
I really wonder what our future will be like. I just want to know if we are happy. That is most important. I also wonder if we got our puppy we have been waiting for since we were 7 years old. Or if we have another parakeet. We should. I just hope we end up having a good college experience and graduate. That is important too. I just want to know we grew up having a good time. Did we? Are we okay?